Tiffany captioned this photo on September 26, 2016:
It’s been almost 10 months since you died. I still have trouble falling asleep. I have to completely exhaust myself before my eyes will close. I’m at this new stage of grief after loss where I’m more comfortable with my life moving forward.
The caption continues to mention how Chris might help guide her from heaven to find the right man to take his place:
I wonder what you think of my life as you view it from Heaven…does God let you watch us? Are you and Jesus watching the man who will someday come into my life and step up to the call God has for him as a spouse to a widow? Will I meet him in 7 or 8 years? Do I already know him?
Despite the immeasurable pain and sadness she felt, Tiffany always focused her energy on her faith:
Loss and grief are gut-wrenching. But it’s brought me closer to the Lord than I ever thought possible. It’s like I can actually HEAR God now, in a way I never could before I lost you. So even in the midst of heartache I give praises to the Lord because I know He is going to work all of this together for good.
After sharing the first photo of her wedding to Josiah, Tiffany was horrified by the backlash she received from hurtful comments. So, she decided to stand up for herself, the love she shares with Josiah, and the love she still has for her first husband:
This. This is love. That all encompassing, enduring, accepting, near perfect love. The kind that trumps my need to snap back at people who have the audacity to comment on my Instagram about whether I loved my first husband or not.
There is no timeline for grief or for when God moves in your life in undeniable ways. There are a lot of people who think it isn’t good to be transparent on social media but I say forget that. I’m going to be open and honest because God wants me to. It’s part of my testimony and it needs to be said.
I was a mess yesterday during our wedding ceremony.
Tiffany even reflected on having Chris’ parents present at the ceremony:
So many emotions flooded my heart as I walked down those balcony steps to the arms of my gift from God. I thought of Chris watching us and knowing he would have loved the choice I made, for me and for the boys. I thought of Chris’s amazing parents sitting front row and how much of a blessing they have been and will forever be in our lives. How happy they are for the boys and I and how much they already love Josiah.
And finally made it crystal clear that just because she has love for Josiah, it will never diminish what she had with Chris:
When I say “Jo is the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me” that in no way indicates that I didn’t love my first husband with all that I had. How dare any one of you judge me and say that on a social platform. It doesn’t make you any better of a person to cast judgment on others and sit in the seat of mockers. […] The beautiful thing about love is that it multiplies as new blessings come into your life. I don’t have to share one bucket of love with the special people in my life. Each one has their own bucket. Get it?
Josiah is a musician who actually performed at Chris’ funeral. Neither of them knew they would end up falling in love, but both believe it was Chris who helped put him in just the right path to help Tiffany heal.
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